There are just some things in life that challenge me to the absolute max and tech related stuff is one of the biggest [insert me pulling my hair out here one strand at a time] tech stuff terrifies the b’geebees outta me! Seriously if I can’t do it in seconds on my phone I break out in a cold sweat and I can literally feel the stress building right through to my bones! I mean coding, links, drop down menus and page set ups’ what the hell’ you may as well be talking to me in another language because I just don’t get it. Who designs this stuff?… someone without a heart who wants to make my life really difficult that’s who!
And believe me when I say I’ve explored them all and in the end it was a close call between using the most popular ones Squarespace or WordPress mostly because my friends use them too. I asked every blogger buddy I know which one was the easiest to use and got a mixed bag of reactions about both. Ugh. Just ugh. No ones fault, both platforms claim to be really user friendly but I’m guessing the designers behind these set ups aren’t designing with someone like me in mind; how are they meant to know I’ve only just recently learned to copy and paste! (hangs head in shame at just how basic my tech skills actually are) even though I operate my own online store and I appear to know what i’m doing. I repeat. I don’t. I usually end up getting the job done by default or sheer luck – occasionally hitting the right button and bingo I’m in! Something that should take 10 minutes, usually takes me around an hour! I know painful right?
Anyway. Wanna know how I finally made my decision?… well I fell in love with a really pretty theme of course, only available for WordPress and that was it, I was sold! In the back of my mind I believe the peeps behind Squarespace may actually have a little more heart and that would have possibly been the more sensible choice for a novice like me, but in true Allison Sadler shaped fashion’ my eyes lit up for the pretty things and I got over excited about playing around with the visuals before focusing my attention on the build.
Once I’d decided on a theme and paid to have it installed, I figured it would be a simple case of slotting everything nicely into place… No. I was WRONG, more days of head banging lay ahead. Because let’s face it, you can only have a lovely time slotting everything nicely into place if you have a teeny tiny idea idea about what you’re doing in the first place. It was definitely time to call in the help of my friends before I lost my mind at the laptop.
Now I don’t know about you but I have a real problem asking for help, I’m so used to working through everything myself (hell’ usually problem solving is one of my biggest strengths) it felt a bit alien fessing up to not being able to do something… seriously I have probably spent 21743895+ hours staring at my computer screen, desperate to make it work, frantically tapping away at buttons, crying tears of sheer frustration onto my keyboard and still I was getting nowhere. Six weeks of getting nowhere to be exact. Feeling (almost) defeated I called in the help of a couple of friends who kindly helped me break the back of my blog build. From emptying my head out on ‘what I wanted my blog to do’ to setting up page layouts, drop down menus and a whole lot more, finally [insert more screaming of the happier kind here] things started to take shape and move forward in the right direction.
You know when you want something so badly and you want it to be absolutely perfect in every way and you’re obsessing about every last detail and pouring every single drop of yourself into it?… well I do that times a million all day long (and in my sleep too) especially when I’m working on a new project, I feel an emotional connection and it can be really tough going and exhausting but it’s just the way I am. It’s all consuming and I can’t rest up until it’s done. And of course sometimes the things most worth having don’t always come easily.
Building a new blog has been a learning curve in many ways for me, not only have I had to rise to the challenge of facing my tech fears, I’ve also had to soul search and dig deep to get my personal branding just right too… but more on that later, that’s a whole nother blog post right there… I think I’m gonna enjoy using this lovely new space of mine. A lot.
How about you, what fears have you had to face to move your work forward? Share them in the comments below and maybe we can try and work through them together, as long as there not tech shaped obvs! 😉
Big love for now