Exactly a year ago since I had my hysterectomy ~ life changing surgery that changed me forever…
For months and months afterwards I felt broken and lost and then slowly day by day I started to heal. I am healing… It’s taken me on an emotional journey of deeper self discovery and self awareness. A rich and spiritual awakening that has both stripped me bare and strengthened me in equal measures.
In July 2019 as I lay there on the hospital bed praying to live ~ every part of me knew my old life was gone and a new very different one was coming. What I didn’t know back then was how the trauma of my experiences would prepare me for what was to come… Everything you live through prepares you for what is to come ~ you just don’t always realise it at the time. Those valuable lessons have enabled me to walk through a pandemic (mostly) without fear and to grieve the loss of my womb, normal life, two close family members and a global racial uprising with grace, tenacity and acceptance.
I’ve looked over my shoulder for my old friend anxiety many times but she’s not really there. It seems she doesn’t come around as often anymore. She’s been replaced with an inner calmness that living in the moment and relinquishing control brings. Your healing journey can only truly begin when YOU truly surrender to the process. I know ~ the boss lady in me resisted for the longest time.
Now.. here I am, showing up, bare faced and bra free! Because every wrinkle, scar and blemish tells my story and makes me the woman I am today and I’ve never felt more liberated. That’s gotta be something worth celebrating right?!
I hope you feel inspired to embrace your story too? whatever that looks like for you.
Be brave friends. Love Allison x x x